-这个时候-

五点到七点多的时候
就是我在一天里面最最最讨厌的时候
从以前就不喜欢
因为总是觉得傍晚的这段时间好像....
要早不早要晚不晚
感觉好像卡在那边
做什么都不对
睡觉又会觉得太少, 可是有提不起精神做其他事情
傍晚黄昏这种时候就是我的脑子goes wild 的时候
就在这种时候, 我就会开始想那些很忧郁的事情
心情就会很承重.
而且在那个时间
天空的颜色会开始渐渐变暗
那种要暗不暗的颜色
我就是不喜欢

可是现在这个时候
六点三十分.
我就做着
从我的书桌前面的窗口就看到这个我从以前就不喜欢的颜色.
太阳的光已经开始慢慢变暗掉
然后对面的海又慢慢变得看不见
就是那种要暗不暗的颜色
照理来说这就是我最不喜欢的时间最不喜欢的颜色

可是
现在
我看着这个橘色红色灰色参在一起的颜色
我觉得很轻松
真的很轻松
我觉得我可以坐在这里很久看着这个景色
我可以让我自己放轻松慢慢暂时走出现实.

人 真的一直在变
从以前不能接受的东西可以变得很喜欢
以前为之疯狂·=的东西可以变的没有什么
世界唯一不改变 就是我不停的改变.

-Not A Bed of Roses-

I thought that someone said she would start blogging again wholeheartedly? haha, i know i know, i haven't been blogging for so long. But i think it really doesn't matter since i don't have much reader. lol. So, it's mid-December now, the so-called doomsday is over, two more days till Christmas, and 8 more days then we will meet mr2013. Times, pass faster than i thought. Now i can totally clearly understand why people say time flies like a blink of an eye, especially this year. It's like, *blink* I'm already a college student. *blink*I have left home for one year. *blink*I'm already eighteen. *blink* 2012 is coming to an end. Don't you guys think the same?or I'm the only one who feel that this year passes really fast? 2012 passed fast, i think it's because of everybody has been busying in adapting themselves into the new life? At least i am, the adaptation process is still in progress.

2012, has not been that awesome for me. There were some hard times, shitty times and so many first time I have experienced in this year. I have been learning throughout the year, learnt about the people, the cruelness of this society, the fact of life and of course the subjects i am supposed to learn in college. lol. FYI, i moved to JB for the sake of college in the beginning of this year and I am studying about shipping management. Yes, Shipping. Maritime. I know right? those are totally not my things. If you were close to me during my high school time, then you might had been listening to me saying that i want the lab to be my future working place. And I ended up exploring the maritime sector? hahahahaha. RIDICULOUS. How and why things turned out like this? a long story, but i think, everything happens for a reason(my roommate's favorite line lol.), Not following the path i wanted to go for might not be a bad thing, plus who knows about the future? thing changes people changes, there are too much of variables which can turn my whole life into something else which me and you people would have never predicted or imagined.

There are millions billions zillions to talk about for this whole year, there are too much stories to tell. Of course I am not going to blog about all those, privacy mah hahaha. But what i can say is, this year is definitely a huge turning point of my life. The good and bad things I have been through, made me a stronger and better person and brought me to a new phase of life. But somehow, I miss the old me, the innocent, weaponless, problem-free, haha. But who doesn't change right? part of growing that we can't escape from. lol. I think my thinking is getting more and more positive. Thanks to the motivating roommate and classmate and awesome friends i have back in my hometown.

*positive-thinker = mature* I should be more mature right? as i have already turned eighteen. hahah, can you imagine how time flies? i am eighteen now! where da hell is the girl with school uniform?!!! lol

 My birthday, i am really glad that i was able to celebrate my birthday here in my hometown this year. I'd never liked to celebrate my birthday but this year I had a great one. I celebrated three times with my friends and the family, awesome memories indeed.

Another special memories, the day of taking the spm result. It was like a official full-stop of my high school life. Man I miss those time, my high school life was awesome back then, I had tuition classes from Monday to Sunday and I kinda liked it. I can still clearly remember the tuition classes's time and subject for each day. So you can see how much i enjoyed my school life? lol. In case you are curious about my spm result, I've got 2a+2a2a-2b+.  

Sorry, didn't mean to talk this much of craps. hahaahaha.

anyway, I am really happy with what i have now, and enjoying the ups and downs in my life. 

From the happy girl

   630 in the morning, just  go to sleep already, wky!

-Teenage?-

Deactivating the facebook account as well as the twitter account.

Too much of socials bring me problems.

-the decision-

Yo, Waduppppppp!

Not going to talk much first. 

ma' to-do list :

1. four weekly assignment, *yea, four, WEEKLY somemore*

2. two group projects

3. 认真的update blog *Oh please, really have the feeling that it won't happen*

btw, I just took the quizzes this noon, which we had to write 5 essays in 1hour! Which means I've written 10 essays. yeaaaaa.

-Sleep All Day-

FINALLY!!

Finals are OVER...

 The last paper was POM,totally got no exam mood at all, 

brain was full of holidays during the POM paper.hahaha

You won't want to know how was my finals week right.
trust me, you won't..

It was just like this...haha

Since the finals are over, 

and the sem break is started.

which means there're no more assignmenttestsquiz!!

SO what're you waiting for? enjoy lai wei!!

Jumped into the pool right after i got home..haha..

Gonna watch movies and dramas like crazy!!

#imisscartoonnetworksomuch!!

-The Original Me-

#blowingoffthedust

So yea,tomorrow will be the finals,and after this will be my semester break..

I have been so busy for the past few weeks,assignments,tests, everything..

Last minute study, it's so not me..LOL

So, I've been staying here for months, the life here is totally different,

different life style, different people to deal with....

I don't know about whether I've changed,during the 3 months, i kept on searching for the original me.

I miss everything in my hometown, I miss my life over there, I miss my friends,

I miss those time when munching books during the midnight for the exams, I miss those time of rushing back from school with a super tired face but still had to go for tuition classes.

I've been trying to adapted myself to the life over here, not saying that my life in JB is shitty, but just..I couldn't feel myself here. Have I changed? or this is the original me that i couldn't recognize? 

Is it supposed to be like this?

So many things to talk about, but i have to go, for the revision or else i would fail my finalsT.T

-The new page of life-

Spending the last day of 2011 in JB for the first time.

College life is going to be started.

and I'm going to turn 18...

omg!!!eighteen!!!