KaiyiN..

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

- Both of us have no idea-

He said, ' i really really like you'

She didn't know what to say.

And times gone by

He said, ' I love you'

She responded, ' thanks'

And times gone by again

He said, ' I love you'

She said, 'I love you too'

And there will be the time where...

She pulls the sleeve of his shirt,

And he will say, okay okay love ya.

Sunday, June 23, 2013

Have you ever felt this way? That you just want to be good and clear and pure
Have you ever felt this way? That all you want are peace and silence, in the inside.

You don't want to have fun on a Friday night, all you want to do is just stay home.
You don't want any alcohol anymore, hot tea is the best thing at night to bring you to bed.
No desire to go to clubs, noisy place, or any social activities, you just want to spend your weekend at home, or maybe some movies and tea times.
Go to college with old grandmama sweater and long skirt/ pant, look exactly a good homely girl.
Don't want to go around and break people's heart or hurt yourself, you just want to keep your heart pure and give your whole concern to something/someone more worthier.
No more gossiping about people's flaws, rumors, criticizing, you don't want all those to come out from your mouth.
Appreciate and be grateful of what you have everyday because this is the best you could get, no more complaining about life, you just accept anything bad happens with opened heart.

Have you ever felt the same? If you do, it is because you believe.

Monday, May 13, 2013

-这个时候-

五点到七点多的时候
就是我在一天里面最最最讨厌的时候
从以前就不喜欢
因为总是觉得傍晚的这段时间好像....
要早不早要晚不晚
感觉好像卡在那边
做什么都不对
睡觉又会觉得太少, 可是有提不起精神做其他事情
傍晚黄昏这种时候就是我的脑子goes wild 的时候
就在这种时候, 我就会开始想那些很忧郁的事情
心情就会很承重.
而且在那个时间
天空的颜色会开始渐渐变暗
那种要暗不暗的颜色
我就是不喜欢

可是现在这个时候
六点三十分.
我就做着
从我的书桌前面的窗口就看到这个我从以前就不喜欢的颜色.
太阳的光已经开始慢慢变暗掉
然后对面的海又慢慢变得看不见
就是那种要暗不暗的颜色
照理来说这就是我最不喜欢的时间最不喜欢的颜色

可是
现在
我看着这个橘色红色灰色参在一起的颜色
我觉得很轻松
真的很轻松
我觉得我可以坐在这里很久看着这个景色
我可以让我自己放轻松慢慢暂时走出现实.

人真的一直在变
从以前不能接受的东西可以变得很喜欢
以前为之疯狂·=的东西可以变的没有什么
世界唯一不改变就是我不停的改变.

Saturday, December 22, 2012

-Not A Bed of Roses-

I thought that someone said she would start blogging again wholeheartedly? haha, i know i know, i haven't been blogging for so long. But i think it really doesn't matter since i don't have much reader. lol. So, it's mid-December now, the so-called doomsday is over, two more days till Christmas, and 8 more days then we will meet mr2013. Times, pass faster than i thought. Now i can totally clearly understand why people say time flies like a blink of an eye, especially this year. It's like, *blink* I'm already a college student. *blink*I have left home for one year. *blink*I'm already eighteen. *blink* 2012 is coming to an end. Don't you guys think the same?or I'm the only one who feel that this year passes really fast? 2012 passed fast, i think it's because of everybody has been busying in adapting themselves into the new life? At least i am, the adaptation process is still in progress.

2012, has not been that awesome for me. There were some hard times, shitty times and so many first time I have experienced in this year. I have been learning throughout the year, learnt about the people, the cruelness of this society, the fact of life and of course the subjects i am supposed to learn in college. lol. FYI, i moved to JB for the sake of college in the beginning of this year and I am studying about shipping management. Yes, Shipping. Maritime. I know right? those are totally not my things. If you were close to me during my high school time, then you might had been listening to me saying that i want the lab to be my future working place. And I ended up exploring the maritime sector? hahahahaha. RIDICULOUS. How and why things turned out like this? a long story, but i think, everything happens for a reason(my roommate's favorite line lol.), Not following the path i wanted to go for might not be a bad thing, plus who knows about the future? thing changes people changes, there are too much of variables which can turn my whole life into something else which me and you people would have never predicted or imagined.

There are millions billions zillions to talk about for this whole year, there are too much stories to tell. Of course I am not going to blog about all those, privacy mah hahaha. But what i can say is, this year is definitely a huge turning point of my life. The good and bad things I have been through, made me a stronger and better person and brought me to a new phase of life. But somehow, I miss the old me, the innocent, weaponless, problem-free, haha. But who doesn't change right? part of growing that we can't escape from. lol. I think my thinking is getting more and more positive. Thanks to the motivating roommate and classmate and awesome friends i have back in my hometown.

*positive-thinker = mature* I should be more mature right? as i have already turned eighteen. hahah, can you imagine how time flies? i am eighteen now! where da hell is the girl with school uniform?!!! lol

My birthday, i am really glad that i was able to celebrate my birthday here in my hometown this year. I'd never liked to celebrate my birthday but this year I had a great one. I celebrated three times with my friends and the family, awesome memories indeed.

Another special memories, the day of taking the spm result. It was like a official full-stop of my high school life. Man I miss those time, my high school life was awesome back then, I had tuition classes from Monday to Sunday and I kinda liked it. I can still clearly remember the tuition classes's time and subject for each day. So you can see how much i enjoyed my school life? lol. In case you are curious about my spm result, I've got 2a+2a2a-2b+.

Sorry, didn't mean to talk this much of craps. hahaahaha.

anyway, I am really happy with what i have now, and enjoying the ups and downs in my life.